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I can’t thank all of you enough for all your kind thoughts and words. It really helps me knowing he has so many people rooting for him! What is ironic, two weeks ago Before all this even came about, I decided one morning that my hair needed to go to locks of love. I cut off my own 15 inch pony tail…and donated it. My daughter who is 5 wants to do the same! 🙂 she has a 13 inch pony tail! Lol.
I was fine most of yesterday. Tears of joy for my insurance. I am so lucky to have it because of my military service. It wasn’t until after Nana picked him and Taylor up for a sleep over that I lost it. Just so quiet in the house without him….
So at 430 AM I just woke up and needed to vent and this is my only place to vent as I want to keep it off Facebook and stuff… So here I am rambling. Part of me knows that he is lucky, it’s a very curable cancer, it could have been a lot worse like it is for some children, and we caught it early so I’m hoping it hasn’t spread to his lymph nodes… But the other part of me is inside screaming, I’m angry that my baby has to sacrifice his testicle, that he may have to do some chemo, that he is too young for surgery and needles and poking and prodding and tests, and now for the rest of his life he’ll have to worry about it coming back, and the subsequent surgeries to put in bigger prosthetics…. Just so much, but I know there are others who have it much much worse.
He is such a sweetheart, always has been… In our four kids we have the loud one Lula who is 1 and thinks she is going to be a singer, she is independent and a voices her opinion every chance she gets… Logan the 2 year old is the smart one, he is a problem solver and gets into stuff that even Darrien can’t get into… Taylor is the diva and princess of the house. She has been nicknamed Princess Pea since she was one month old (referring to the fairy tale) and Darrien, is the sweet one, the one who notices when someone is in a funk and comes over lays his hand on your shoulder looks you in the eyes and asks you if you’re alright. He asks, Is there anything I can do to make it better? He is the hugger too, and the I love you’s for no reason…. I have an awesome set of babies. I am the luckiest Momma in the entire world….
He was so BRAVE during his blood draw today!!! He has never had blood taken before…. No tears!!!!! I was very proud momma! We got ice cream after that! He was happy and very proud of himself!
Thank you so much for everyone’s love and support!!!!! It is helping me so much!
UPDATE: I called my insurance and they WILL cover his prostetic testicle!!! This makes me the happiest Mommy in the world!!!!! Today he is going in for his first blood panel, which he is terrified of…hopefully ice cream and a vacation at Nana and Opa’s house will relax him….
Now that I have had a chance to sleep on it and absorb it all, I’m not crying every ten minutes…. I have a new resolve to be strong for my son and beat this cancer! No I never cried in front of him yesterday. The doctors an I didn’t feel it would do any good to really explain the details of what’s going on. All he knows is that there is a spot on one that we have to take out. And we are going to keep it that way until after surgery. I’m going to be talking to a counselor about how to tell him and I need training on how to help him. This is all going to be happening in the next couple weeks so everything will be coming at us fast.
Thank you to each and everyone of you for your well wishes and prayers. Nothing I could ever say would show my gratitude for the kindness and understanding all of you have shown. I will keep everyone updated when we know more about when surgery is. They said it will be an out patient thing, but that he will be on bed rest for a week after. So I am gathering things now to make his room special and fun so that he doesn’t get bored and sad… I bought him a new DSi last week and got him a couple games of Pokemon. I’m also going to paint him a keeper in green and blue, and have it hold a blue gem (blue is the color of ribbon for testicular cancer) That will make him very happy I know as he has been wanting a windstone for a while now lol.
I will make sure that I update here so you all know how he is doing… Hugs to you all!!!
LIH, I am on the brink of completing a 5th Gen PB Neb Egg, I will post it once its done, let me know if you would like an egg! Or feel free to pick around my nebs and find pairs that I haven’t give you already that you want eggs from to help you with your project. Hugs!
The two I am putting together to finalize this is
http://dragcave.net/lineage/802X1
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I’m so sorry to hear about your Uncle. 🙁 I hope with time your family’s hearts heal. Warm howls to you sugar…
The boxes could be stamped with the date they were released…. Most of us want the boxes they come in anyway.
The Navy doesn’t allow piercings otherwise I would have more than my ears done…but I made up for it in tattoos 🙂
Speaking of Renn Fair…
Me and My hubby Oct 2012
I had a blast because this was my first season of renn fairs
Just me posing lol
Back of my outfit
and…. Me and WOLFEN!!!!! Best thing about it was I got to see her everytime I went!!!!
O.o You look beautiful in the red bridesmaid dress…red looks very nice on you!!!! Wolfen + Riversgrace = LOW CARB MACHINES!!!! 🙂 We both look great thanks to our hard work, and supporting eachother 🙂 Can’t wait to see you soon!!!!!
Yep! What you see in the picture of me in the grey shirt is HALF of what I had! Sometimes they are too much of a good thing! Oh and this was my second reduction in four years…
I had a reduction. Gives me a new leash on life. Healing has been going slower than I’d like…I want to run my dogs but I can’t for another couple of weeks.
And yes Branzy.. you are hot…you should know that 😉 because we all do!
