Oh sweetie, I havent been around having been holed up in a huge AAA show jumping circuit but I feel so sorry for you and your family’s loss. What is of great strength and benefit and one big band aid on your heart is that you made his final months as comfortable as ever they could be. He is where he is supposed to be right now and will watch out for you and yours. Spiritually, in time, maybe youll cross paths again.
Youll never forget but time will ease pain. There will be days you have years from now you break down crying when thinking of him hard enough- just let it happen. You saved him- soon it may be his turn to save you.
Consider candle lit and much love and hugs towards your way. xoxoxoxoxox