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    some of you may know that I have a major anxiety disorder.. well… it’s getting a million times worse and I don’t know what to do. I’m like the worst hypochondriac you’ve ever seen x 5000. I’m in constant pain, my heart flutters every few seconds, I’m losing my mind. I know I need to go to a doctor but I’m too terrified of tests and drugs. My parents are getting fed up with me constantly asking them if I could have this or that disease and I’m just so scared. I can never be alone, I have massive panic attacks… just… ugh. I don’t want to take any kind of anti-anxiety drugs with all the risks of liver damage and whatnot. Plus I’m severely germophobic and that’s another reason I don’t want to go to a doctor. I mean, I had both flu shots (seasonal & H1N1) but still… blugh.

    I just… ergh… I’m so confused and yeah. sorry for complaining, I just had to get it out since my panrents don’t listen. T_T

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    #803365
    BDW
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    PaperCut wrote:

    some of you may know that I have a major anxiety disorder.. well… it’s getting a million times worse and I don’t know what to do. I’m like the worst hypochondriac you’ve ever seen x 5000. I’m in constant pain, my heart flutters every few seconds, I’m losing my mind. I know I need to go to a doctor but I’m too terrified of tests and drugs. My parents are getting fed up with me constantly asking them if I could have this or that disease and I’m just so scared. I can never be alone, I have massive panic attacks… just… ugh. I don’t want to take any kind of anti-anxiety drugs with all the risks of liver damage and whatnot. Plus I’m severely germophobic and that’s another reason I don’t want to go to a doctor. I mean, I had both flu shots (seasonal & H1N1) but still… blugh.

    I just… ergh… I’m so confused and yeah. sorry for complaining, I just had to get it out since my panrents don’t listen. T_T
    ๐Ÿ™ Papercut as much as you hate drugs, you need to see a doctor!
    Having so many anxiety attacks are not good for you and could do as much damage as the drugs you would have to take to control them.
    A friend of mine got very severe ones and I had to rush her to the hospital since she couldn’t breathe. Apparently it was a good thing to do. She could have gone under cardiac arrest!
    Please see a specialist as soon as possible.

    #803366
    dragonmedley
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    I second that. I have a friend who gets these types of attack and the solution is meds and therapy.

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    #803367
    Morrigan
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    I know all about panic/anxiety attacks but in my case, my trigger point isn’t to do with hypochondria. I tried meds but they didn’t last very long and I didn’t like them “masking” my feelings anyway so I just coped on my own and spent most of my teen years trying to make sense of things. I can’t really offer any decent advice but I was lucky enough to sometimes be able to remove myself physically and emotionally from situations that caused panic attacks. When I was forced to be in that situation though, it was terrible. They still sometimes jump up on me by surprise but I think I’ve probably got my own coping tactics I’ve developed over the years. I was told I hide away too much though which is definitely one of my coping strategies for not running into situations that give me anxiety but right now I feel safer like that. ^_^ So I’m probably no help but I know what you’re going through anyhow.

    #803368
    Jasmine
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    Honey, you have to go and see a professional. I have the same problem and trust me, the drugs and psychotherapy to go with it are the only things that can help you now.

    Avoiding situations that reduce your attacks will not work. That is the one serious thing I’ve learned. You have to force yourself into that situation. If an attack happens, ride it through. Just keep saying to yourself…”this will pass”. No one can stay that scared for more than 10 minutes. The adrenaline will ease off. Meds will help. Then, when nothing horrible happens to you…you can go out for a little bit longer, small steps at a time. There is a grocery store near me. First time, I made it to the end of our lane way, next time, I made it to the corner, next time, I made it 2 blocks…small steps. Sure you can do avoidance, refuse to do anything that might trigger an attack, but what good will that do for you in the end? It turns you into a hermit because you will do anything to get out of going outside, makes you completely dependent on other people. And what happens when those people are no longer there? Do you want to starve to death in your house because you’re too afraid to go out and get groceries?

    Get professional help. Now, not later…not when you “feel better”…now.

    #803369
    Bodine
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    Bless your hearts.I can’t give advise on that but if I could,I would send you strength.Be brave,be strong and one thing I do know,all things must pass. ๐Ÿ™‚
    At least go to the Doc one time and try it,you just never know. ๐Ÿ™‚ Good Luck.

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    #803370

    I have dealt somewhat with what you are speaking of. Not nearly as bad as you are it seems. Yeah, I became a hermit for about 4 years. I was germaphobic, I was scared of large crowds of people, I mean SCARED! It only took me until I couldn’t go to family functions without being a total loon by the time we left…I finally talked to someone. It was just a wife of Scott’s co-worker, but she drug me out of the house, washed me up a bit, or polished you could say, got me to go shopping and I went from the 230lbs I was to 160lbs in the matter of months. I got a small amount of self esteem back, and a hair cut, and well, you get the point.
    I hate drugs as much as the next guy, pills bother me to no end. I was on anti-depressants for about 4 months. Seems my problems stemmed from that, as those helped me. I was prescribed for another 8 months of them. which I never took , and let my script lapse. Once in a while I feel myself slipping back into that old crap again, and I have to physically try to get myself going again. Painting makes it too easy for me to stay inside and blah myself away. Winter is my worst time, but every year it gets a smidge better.
    As for panic attacks, are those the things where it feels like someone is squeezing the air right out of you, and tight little bands of steel around your chest? If that explains those, then yep, I’ve been there too. I mean to tell you, girl, if you are having alot of those and for extended time, GO NOW! I have only had maybe a handful or two and I could breath, and I wondered what was happening to me, but since then the situation causing them, was taken care of. I can say I haven’t had one in almost a year. Yay me. But, had they been much worse, I would have gone, and I HATE going to the doctor! I will be half on my death bed before I will go, and usually I have 3 people yelling at me to get my arse in there! Please, by all means seek professional help NOW!
    Oh, and as far as my germ situtation…I got past that by becoming a Certified Nursing Assistant…Wipe a few thousand butts in 4 years and deal with some of the worst germs out there, it’s enough to break anyone. I only called in sick 3 times to work also in those 4 years. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    #803371
    megamibabe16
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    PaperCut please go see a doctor and get yourself help. I have a friend with the same problem, and though she doesn’t like any of her medications they really do help her. I have seen her time and time again run screaming and crying from the room, but after she takes her medication and sits down for a little while she is perfectly fine. I suggested that she drink hot tea to help calm herself, and she has told me that it does wonders for her. I know that you are scared, but continuously running away from the problem will not get you any where. You have to slowly start facing your fears, and then you will find out that they are not as bad as you thought they were.

    #803372

    I agree. Please go see a doctor. It takes courage to talk about it, so I know you have some in there somewhere. Tap into that and find the courage to go talk to a doctor.

    ((hugs))

    #803373
    machineguts
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    *Hugs tight* Keeping you in my prayers, PC! I understand the effects of AD all too well. Definitely see a doctor and therapist for it as soon as possible! They will help you get things back on track. Healing can be a very rough road at times, but I promise you, life can go on without the anxiety. It is so worth it. <3

    #803374

    Okay, a couple weeks ago I went to my doctor and she put me on citalopram (an antidepressant) and valium, plus a massive dose (50,000 IU) of vitamin D because I was really low on that. So I do feel a bit calmer now, but I’m still worried about having diseases and germs and everything. My heart is acting better though thankfully. I still need to make an appointment with a psychiatrist but I’m nervous about that because I have a phone phobia. Plus I’m worried that I won’t pick the right one that can really help me. Well I have to see me doctor again in a couple days so I’ll talk to her about it then.

    Of course my mother had to get sick last week so I’ve been freaked out about that, spraying Lysol all over the house every time she comes out of her room, and then two nights ago I had to puke for no reason. :puke: ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

    And it doesn’t help either that my mother is constantly harping at me that she’s going to call the cops and the nut hatch if I “don’t stop being ridiculous”. Ergh.

    But thanks got the advice. I’m trying to get better. It’s just really hard and I don’t know if I’m strong enough. ๐Ÿ™

    #803375
    dragonmedley
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    You took the first step and it helped. Focus on that. The psychiatrist will help too. Tell both doctors about the negative vibes in your house; they may have tips on how to deal with them.

    Hugs!

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    #803376

    Yeah, I wish I could find an energy psychiatrist but I don’t think there are any around here. I’ve been reading this book and it seems to be helping a little.

    #803377
    Jasmine
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    I’m really glad you’re getting help. I know it’s hard but it does get easier. Your family doctor will be able to refer you to a qualified psychiatrist. And since they know what problems you have, they can refer you to the proper one. Hugs hun. It really will get easier.

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