Yet more tears.

Sorry for a sad topic..but I need to let this out a bit. As many of you may have read in one of my other posts my father passed away about 2 weeks ago after a long and painful battle with multiple forms of cancer. I took this rather hard since he passed away a mere 2 days after me and my 6 year old daughter Jade left from visiting with him and my mother. As a few may know, my little girl is a special needs child. She had a stroke before she was born and is physically and devolopmentally disabled. She had a few minor seizures when she was less than two but otherwise has had no further problems from the stroke. I was glad we got to visit my father before he passed away, Jade was very special to him.

I was starting to get over the worst of the mourning for him when this weekend arrived. My mom and one of my cousins up from Texas decided to come out to visit and relax this weekend. All was going fine. My mother, cousin and I all went down to the beach to walk a couple of hours before noon saturday. We returned to find my daughter in the midst of a Grand Mal seizure! She and my husband had been taking a nap when with no warning she starting jerking and twitching. We came home right as this happened, I dailed 911 and proceeded to try to help keep my little girl alive. She stopped breathing twice, we had to do rescue CPR until the ambulance arrived…I don’t think I could have even imagined how scared I was during all this. You have never known terror until you hold your child and they are as limp as wet rag. It took her about 20 minutes to come out of it, I think I aged 20 years suring that time. She was lifeflighted to the childrens hospital in seattle. To keep this short….several hours and lots of tests later, she is ok. She has to be on seizure meds the rest of her life, but hopefully they can control this with the medicine. The meds make her tired and grumpy, it’s a small price to not go through that again.

I do apoligize for venting a bit of my pain here. Just writing about all this brings back some of the fear. I haven’t been able to sleep at night for listening to Jade, any little hitch in her breath startles me wide awake. It’s hard to concentrate on much of anything but my little girl. I hope you all will forgive me for awhile. I will get back into the full swing of things as soon as I can. HUGS and make sure you give your kids and family lots of hugs and kisses too!