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I took the test and I got this
Birta is not in the top 1000 names for any year of birth in the last 10 years.
Please enter another name.lol XD
since I don’t live close by, I could send you lunch…. but it probably won’t be edible when it reaches you 😈
guys, I have been in an epic battle of my own against the craving for eating unhealthy stuff and gaining weight, my knees have been killing me, it’s like … a horrible battle of will against will (yearn for food vs the yearn of fitting in the nice wardrobe I used to have and not having to rest my knees so often during the day), when I started this i used to be 106 kilos ( a little over 212 pounds) I fought an epic battle and now I am 10 kilos (20 pounds) lighter….
but I need more, I just need to fit in clothes that they sell in the “normal size” stores, (one of the heartbreaking moments that I had when feeling depressed and bad for my weight was when an employee of a store looked at me with a look of disgust and told me that they didn’t sell the big sizes, and then I wasn’t so big, just not superslim,) I need to loose weight,
so now I ask of you that you show me patience when I am posting either smileys or the green vomiting smiley depending on if I am doing good or bad
so round two begins tomorrow…. wish me luck 8)
I’ve been reading my person through and I still have problems figuring out what to buy…. 😮 but I’ve got an idea now……… just hope s/he likes it
thank you guys, *eats virtual chocolates* I’m kinda afraid to go to a therapist, cus he may lock me away and give me a shirt like jasmines status quotes,
@Poems: yes I’m an Icelander, (an inbreed), and if I’m having mid life crisis I think it would be early, I turned 30 last sunday, I did do those things, but secretly, and that’s no fun at all, (misery loves company), I often find my self thinking that everyone is selfish and most ppl have “universe navel syndrome” that’s why I try not to comlain often, I just needed to this time, My problems are like a speck in the universe, and I’m not its navel 8) and I love drilling, that’s my kinda humour and reminds me not to whine,
the reason I see my mom everyday is because she is nice enough to babysit everyday after kindergarten so that I can keep my job, and as for my girlfriend, I’m being a bitch by acting as if I don’t know that she started the rumors and sulking to her (“why doesn’t he speak to me anymore”), there is no reason for her to find out that I know.and sky, I change often and I change drastically, (he’s a plain person and likes to go with the flow) he nearly cried when I shaved a quarter of my hair to make a punkish style hair, but it really looked good (like Robyn), and I kick my mom out regularly when she passes my limit
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vfLvZCdT9g that’s similar to my hair now
this is a sort of a rant thing, so if you’re not in the mood for it, don’t read….
Sometimes I just want to cry, I feel like my soul is being crumpled like a paper bag with disappointing pastries from the bakery still inside it, I have been fighting for years to get my self esteem up and finding the purpose of my existence, finding the look that suits me, making me more likable for me,
well… that actually happened last year, I felt good about myself, actually found a friend that made me feel good about everything I wanted to do but was too afraid to let myself do, we had good times and I grew more confident and I started to love myself for the first time in 29 years, my appearance changed and I got to be more outgoing, doing stuff I always wanted to do with that guy but never found anyone who wanted to do those things with me (we were like best friends and hubby did not get jealous bc he knew nothing would happen).
and then it happened, things went downhill, he heard rumors that I had been telling everyone that he was in love with me and he found that inappropriate so he just stopped talking to me, no surprise there, I would have found that inappropriate to, but it wasn’t a true rumor , I crumbled, begging him to believe me, but he didn’t, and then I found out that our friend (another female) had told him this, I think that she is interested in him, and got jelous, this was hard, and as my self esteem was beginning to crumble again, the demolition process begins, hubs doesn’t like the way I dress anymore, it’s too different, he hates my new glasses, dislikes my haircut, disses my clothes, etc. It allmost seems like he wants the old unhappy me back.
Then comes the case of mom, she insults me every time she comes by my house, complains that I don’t call her often enough (I see her every day) disses my haircut, and gets raving mad if I ask her not to do something (like giving me a scolding in front of my 3yr old when she thinks my upbringing tactics are not quite right and I’m being too harsh, she is undermining my authority and he doesn’t listen to me anymore)so what I feel now is rejection, from my friend, from my man and from mom, I just want to cry, why cant life be simple and why can’t I be happy……
dude, I feel for you, and everytime you post a topic, I start thinking “what now???”
so this one’s for you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRhOD4u_tCM
I hope that things turn out right
