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I thank you. Thank you for your sympathies, and your compassion.
Today, I received an unexpected package. In it was a piece of wonderful artwork, a card, and Koishii’s spectacular “Sapphire Emerald #2” pyo dragon…
To those who don’t know, my mother passed away on April 10th. She was 47 years ago, and would have been 48 on May 10th (mother’s day). She was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer last year in May. Her treatments were going well, and her doctor gave her years to live. But then someone did something wrong, and gave her weak body, and weak liver (which only had one active tumor in it) 4 times the dose of radiation to also attack those dormant tumors.
That eroded her liver. The radiation went out of the liver and attacked her gallbladder, her stomach, and more. Her stomach ended up shriveling up because of it. Because her liver had holes in it, she swelled up like a balloon because all the fluids she in took, just came right out of her liver and into the spare space in her body. She weighed only about 110 at that point, having lost her original 140lbs body to the treatments… but she looked like she weighed 160+ because of how swollen her body was.
All because of that radiation… she could have been here still today…
I was at work, when my dad called me on a monday… he said, go see your mom… she feels she only has a week left. I thought she was getting better… so I left work right after getting that voice message and just stayed with her all day till the night. As with the next several days. She was soon moved to Hospice of the Valley, and she was there for two days, and then she passed on Good Friday at 4:40pm, surrounded by everyone from her family, and her bosses and friends from her job.I’ve never disclosed my age here, never felt a need, but to those wondering, I am only 22 (at the end of this month I will be 23). I feel lost. As does my dad.
Since my mom passed, thing have been turned upside down. My mom’s job loved her so much, that during this whole time, she was being paid 100% full, no matter if she came into work or not. Now… we don’t have that. My dad lost his job due to the company he worked for going bankrupt. I recently got laid off from my second job, which my mom was so proud of me for getting… I looked for two years for another second job, I only just started working there in April, now I no longer do due to them hiring too many people. No one is hiring in this little town, I check the newspaper every other day.
We may have to sell this house, which we don’t want to ever consider. My mom loved this house. But at this point… life is so twisted around, and I’m so confused.
Why did this happen to my mom? The person who picked up other peoples trash off the street. Would help anyone who offered, or needed advice. The person who never did a damn thing bad in her entire life? She was so selfless that you didn’t ever know what to buy her for christmas or her birthday (and who didn’t want people spending money on her) because she never bought anything for herself. Everyone else always came first.There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t cry thinking about her. I try not to look at photos of her because it’s all over for me then.
My mom was 47, but looked the exact same as she did when she was 17. And that isn’t exaggerated. These photos were all taken at different times in her life.. and yet they all looks the same.
She was a model when she was in her 20s or so… she never talked about it with anyone so it came as a surprise to almost everyone who worked with her.
This is a scan from a book that her work made. They moved their main building elsewhere here, and in the back of that book, there were three pages for In Memory of my mom.
We know wrong has been done, but we’ve been turned down several times when talking to lawyers. A woman can get 30 million dollars because she was an idiot and spilled mcdonalds coffee on herself… but when someone ODs on a treatment and that leads to the death of someone, you can’t get anyone to say yes… It is so frustrating. I’m not sure what else we can do in this regard.
Again… I can’t thank you all enough. I’m to glad that I’m part of this forum, and everyone who is on here. It’s hard to not get emotional when talking about this. You guys are here when others are not, and always have open ears… even if I held it all in till now…
Thank you, for such a wonderful, thoughtful gift. It really lifted me up today 🙂
Please excuse any mistypes… I couldn’t proof read it…
It is very hard to loose someone very close to your heart. 😥 I am so sorry for your losses. It is hard to get judicial to do anything when it comes to doctors…. They are all friends. 😉 I have expierenced both, not related. I know that this forum will keep you in their hearts and wish you well. 🙂 8)
I’m glad it helped, even if it’s just a little. You’re definitely in my thoughts. Yours is a deep wound that only time can heal. Even then, it may never heal completely.
Big hugs!
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http://www.sarahjestin.com/feedbacklists.htmKujacker, I’m so sorry for your loss. 🙁
😥 Your mother was beautiful and she still is as she lives in your hearts.
I’ll pray that someone listens to your plea and gives you hope.
I’m glad it cheared you up a little.I am so glad that you find comfort and support here. Your mother was a beautiful woman and it’s so sad what happened to her. Rest assured that you are in our thoughts and all wish you comfort in this difficult time.
It took a lot of courage for you to write all of that. I know how private you are. Please let this little dragon be a reminder to you that you’re not alone. You have friends who care about you.
Kujacker, I am so sorry! Your mom was just beautiful!! Please don’t stop looking for attorneys that would be willing to take your case. If need be, go outside your community to find one. See if you can get one that will take it on contingency. It sounds like you have a good case. That’s what malpractice insurance is for!
It’s so hard at any age to lose a mom and harder yet when you lose her when you are so young. Grief counseling can really help a lot, I hope you consider it. It can help your dad through this too, you can go together if you want or separately and it’s free. Usually the hospital social services run one and the hospices do too. *Lots and lots of hugs*Drgnlvr’s right; see if you can find grief counseling, though I wouldn’t blame you for not going near that hospital again. Your mother looked to be a beautiful and vibrant woman, I am sorry for the loss of you and your family. We are here for you anytime; thank you for sharing this with us. You’ll be in my prayers tonight.
I’m so sorry about your mom, she was a beautiful lady. ( I love the 2 in the middle. The one where she’s laughing and the one on the left. She looks like a movie star to me. 😉 ) Glad our little present lifted you up just a bit. :yes: 😉
It was kinda hard figuring out what we could do, but when you commented on koishi’s dragon it fit. You could say you fell into that one. 😀 Thank you!! 😉Kuj, huge hugs for you and your family. I don’t know what I’d do if I lost my mum and I’m sorry that you’re having to endure such pain. Your dear Caribbean Dragon from the last swap sits in the curio and guards the front door – there’s not a day that goes by without me thinking of you… I figure you must get your beautiful soul from your mum… loves ya
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Words fail me at the moment and anything I could say would feel inadequate, so a simple, heartfelt *HUGS* to you and your family. 😥
I am really glad it came in today. i was hoping it would. He isn’t a perfect little dragon, and the perfectionist artist in me wishes his paint flaw could have been smoothed out…i was a little surprised that they wanted to use it as a gift for some one when i considered him a less professional piece because of hi paint flubs on some of the scales……………but i think he carries a lot of meaning now, with those paint flubs. I really hope he gives you a smile, quite a few people really pulled together…and i feel pretty greatful myself that i got to be apart of it. I know the art was small, but i wanted to add something extra with it. I am familier with the pain of loss, and i know it will be something felt for quite a while for you, so i hope that the little gift he ended up becoming helps you through as you journey through those emotions.( dang it! how come i could not have thought of that as i was writing in the card! lol, i am really bad at writing stuff in cards.)
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