I’m so sorry that you are in so much pain. I just wanted to let you know that the little PYO you painted for me in the forest colors has a special place in the collection on a little pedestal of his own, and he is much admired and special by everyone that sees him. You have been through a lot and you keep hanging in through it all, using your talents and keeping on keeping on. Please get some help for this debilitating sickness, Kujacker, no one needs to live in emotional pain and neither do you. Therapy and chemical help(like the right anti-depressive meds) can really help you move on through this dark place. You are a young and loving man that the world of both people and animals need more than ever right now. Please don’t give up, it’s not the answer to killing the pain. Ok? Please keep letting us know how you are doing!