The heck NO!! thread..

I am really tired today. So I talked to a couple of freinds who used to be EMS, an have heard all sorts of stuff. So to start…

Yesterday afternoon, I was riding my bike home from the store, and was hauling my trailer with a few groceries. I had been feeling this dull ache in my left rib cage and arm, and as I feel all sorts of abnormal pains all the time, I just kinda ignored it.
You see, two years ago I took a spill in the winter on my bike and hit my head on the curbside of the road as i was pulling into the library. The helmet missed the curb an I stuck just below the edge of it. About an hour later this pain started with some pressure in my head and was followed by the worst pain I had ever felt. It lasted for a couple of days, I was having a severe concussion. At the time I was living in a transitional home and the owner refused to let me go to the hospital, to my mothers later displeasure, and instead gave me multiple anti-inflammatory’s and insisted I was over reacting and faking it. Since then, I have been looking in on the possibility of fibromyalgia, but to date it has been stated as post-concussive myalgia’s. (in English, i have pains for unknown reason, only that they may have been related to a past concussion). So anyways, I have felt minor pains, aches and fatigues ever since, along with the occasional black out and some slightly questionable spasmatic muscular events ( conscious seizures?).

Back to the original story. The pains in my ribs started to get really sharp. It felt like some one was stabbing me or a horse was repeatedly kicking my ribs, and the pain started shooting down my left arm. It was strong and incredibly sharp. Every time i felt it, my breath was pulled from me, and I would gasp, my eyes would glaze over and tear up. I started every few minutes. I stopped on the side of the road and called my friend who was working, leaving a message where she she could hear me gasping in pain on my end of the line.

I wasn’t far from home so I tried to keep going on my bike. I suddnly got worse and more frequent, I could barely see or steer my bike, so I called my boss, who said he’s call me back. When He called me back, I was crying and gasping, tears pouring down my face as the pain came over and over agian. He hung up to call a co-worker and good freind to come get me. I got up around the corner and the pain was so bad, I was getting dizzy, I coudn’t see, my vision ws going between being glazed over and black spots and darkness. I stoped,and was stooped over my bike a shiver and spasm racing thoguh my body every few seconds as the pain came. I have never felt anything like it. A car pulled over asked if I was OK. I could barley talk, let alone stand, and stammered out that I had talked to my boss and someone was coming. A passing sheriff stopped and asked what was wrong. He got out of his car and help me off my bike and I crumpled to the ground.
My body was going numb and I was tingling everywhere. I was curled up on the side of the road and i could barly talk and was scared half to death and spasms were rippling through all my muscles. The cop called EMS and my coworker arrived, and called out my name panicked. She thought i had been hit by a car. She sat next to me and all i could manage to whisper was “help me… make the pain stop.please, make it stop” over and over. breathing was hard, I was numb and tingling and coudn’t move. Just felt the spasms and her stroking my head looking scared for my life. An ambulence came. They (the cops and ems and fighfighter kept asking the smae questions. Who are you, when were you born, where are you, who is the president? stuff like that. I managed to give them a bit of my medical history, and they lifted me onto a gurny and into an ambulence. They put an IV in me, attached a bunch of wires and stuff and drove me to the hospital. By then my heart hate was slowing, the pain was fading along with the numbness, and i just tingled a bit as a wave of exauhstion swept over me.
They brought me in and while I was there ran a bunch of tests. They did an EKG, took x rays, and a some other stuff. As soon as it was mentioned of my medical history that I had Bi-polar, they started ignoring the complaints of pain. They started asking questions like if I had ever had an anxiety attck before and stuff like that. Once it was apparent my heart was OK, it was if the pain had never happened. they acted like I had made it up or over reacted. By the time I was discharged, they said I pulled a muscle and had had a panic attack over it. I know that isn’t true. I think I was going into shock over the pain. And that it caused the panic attack or siezure or whatever. But they wouldn’t listen and sent me home.

Today I am weak, tired and scared. Scared it will happen again, scared of the pain and scared of being alone. I have a couple of friend who are past EMS, and one who is on the medical team of ski patrol. I nor them have ever heard of a panic attack over a pulled muscle. None of my muscles there are even tight. I see the doctor tomorrow. Everyone I talked to said those are signs of shock, of siezures. If I feel pain every day and I can deal with it, so logically, I have a high pain tolerance, right?

And I Do. So what happened terrifies me, but anyways there is my story I guess.