Just Letting Everyone Know

Laying it all out there publicly just to avoid a bunch of PMs and stuff because I am not as available as I would like to be and may not be available for a while.

I have basically all my commissions all set, painted, repaired, and shipped so that’s good. I know I have a male Unicorn repair to send off to his home and a couple boxes of Flap Cat repairs to send back to another customer and that’s all. I will have no more commissions or stuff in my house that belongs to other people! YAY! These all will be sent out this month sometime. (at least I hope so)

The reason why I am laying this all out is I have just been diagnosed with pulmonary hypertension and acute exacerbation / sparatic broncho spasm…. most of these things, I don’t know what they mean. All I know is I have been in and out of the emergency room 3 times in the past week and a half because my chest and throat have just been randomly closing up and I have no idea why. I have no allergies that I know of and no one particular thing seems to be causing it. I had been averaging about one attack a month this time last year, and then maybe in the past 3-6 months I was getting about one a week, to now, it’s every other day and they are much worse to the point I almost pass out.

However… not being able to breathe is quite terrifying so I finally went to the emergency room for the last few times since I have gotten to the point I thought I was maybe, possibly going to pass out and not wake up. I assumed I may have developed asthma or some sort of allergy, but I just got some Xrays done the day before yesterday and we know it’s not asthma, not bronchitis, not phenomonia, basically, not anything they can tell me what it is. The fact they would not let me SEE the X ray bothers me the most I think.

The ER doctor told me my lungs look “abnormal” so at this point I have no clue but he hinted that I may have some kind of lung disease, of what type, he doesn’t know, (or just can’t tell me) but I need to see a specialist as soon as I can. At least, this is what I was told. So far, they seem to think anything having to do with exerting myself, or any kind of activity seems to be causing the attacks because it seems if I do anything besides it on my couch like a lump I start to wheeze. Also, I have been holding pretty steady at about a 130 heart rate which apparently is bad. For the moment I am being treated as if I have exercise induced asthma until I see a real doctor.

Of course, I don’t have a primary (never seen a doctor in my life) so I have a lengthy waiting list before I can be seen and I need a primary to recommend me to a specialist which I’m sure will take another waiting list. I don’t know how much more of a pain in the butt they can really make giving me bad news and giving me the treatment I actually need so I can breathe, but I guess it’s just a long road of pointless bills basically just for someone to tell me whatever the ER person can’t tell me.

ANYWAY, for now I am on an inhaler, prednisone, and a few other happy handful of prescriptions that aren’t helping very much and seem to cost more then they are worth. If I use the inhaler, it seems to stop the attack from getting worse if I just don’t move, but I have to get it quick or I am back in the ER again regardless so I have to keep it with me 24-7 and nip it as soon as I feel short of breath (as I found the other night when I got the amazing idea to shampoo my carpet)

So there you have it. If I’m not around, this is why. It doesn’t take much effort to type on a computer so I will still be available in a sense, however I do not like pills and I do not react well to them. I take two Advil and I get the shakes, so I just don’t know if I am going to be up to being on the computer much. Maybe I’ll be fine, I just don’t know. I do know I will not be taking on more commissions for the time being. At least nothing major.

I’ve basically been told to just sit and do nothing until I see a doctor, but unfortunately I need to work because I need income, but at least I am on light duty. We’ll see what happens. I just want to breathe again. I can only describe it as how it must feel to be a fish out of water trying to breathe. That’s how it feels anyway.

So hooray… >_< I will say... if I find out after ALL of this crap that I DO actually have lung disease, I want little wallet sized prints of my X rays to put in thank you cards for my WHOLE family who are all chronic chain smokers while I (the only NON smoker in the whole family) end up with freaking lung disease.