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I’m writing this because I have a confession to make. I take friendships for granted. As thankful as I am to have friends in my life, sometimes I’m just not a very good friend. 🙁 I’m selfish and I tend to have a “me first” attitude. I’m not perfect (though I often try to be.) I let ego and envy get in the way when I’m too prideful to admit when and where I fall short. Being hurt when I was little, it ingrained in me a habit of lashing out and hurting others whenever I felt threatened or abused by them. Most of the time I’m not even being “attacked” so to speak, I automatically assume someone is being hurtful towards me and my defenses go up, along with my arrogance. Does that make me a bad friend? Yes, in those times it does. Am I sorry for hurting others? Absolutely. I wish I could go back in time and take back all the things I’ve done that hurt the people in my life. But I can’t change the past, and I can’t change the fact that I am just human. All I can do is move forward, ask forgiveness of those who I have hurt, and hope that they stay by my side. I am genuinely sorry.
*hugs* I think most of us have felt like this at one point or another, I know I have! The good thing is, your true friends like you for who you are and will always be ready to build a stronger friendship.
Not sure if I missed something here, but sounds like you know yourself quite well…
Having a past that could rival any after-school movie, I’ve learned after all this time, it never goes away. Doesn’t mean I use it as a crutch though. Memories are the mind’s way of making sure you don’t repeat mistakes. Use that knowledge. Sometimes our past screws us up royally, but remember, no matter how bad you had it, there is always someone out there that went through worse.
You are you… The good, the bad and the ugly. True friends look through the bad and focus on the good.Up until I was 20, I never looked people in the eyes and only thought about death. Wondering why God wouldn’t answer my prayers to take me away… Not a good way to live…
Now, I have a wonderful husband of 13 years, two awesome good hearted kids, and a plethera of ponies! 😀
If I hadn’t of gone through the crap I did growing up, I would not have the life I have now and wouldn’t change it for the world. God bless the broken road…So cheers! You will find your path. Embrace who you are, focus on making yourself a better person, and the world will love you!
Hugs.
AndreaDon’t be so hard on yourself! I know how you feel… and I’m sure a lot of people feel that way at one time or another. I’m no good at friendships and they have always been tough for me. I hope things get better for you soon hun!
I’m cynical and sarcastic. I have a hard time dealing with real people too, though I’ve been told I’m getting better. I feel your pain. Huge Hugs Hun!! 😀
true friends forgive the bad days of others, and understand we all act like dolts at times.
Not saying you have acted like a dolt (in all honesty I have no idea what you’re referring to in your post…so i cant say anything on that) but we all have days that we stick our foot in our mouths, or act less honorably than we’d like. It’s being big enough to say “gack, I’m sorry..” that makes a good person.
just my two cents.
Phoenix wrote:Not sure if I missed something here, but sounds like you know yourself quite well…
Having a past that could rival any after-school movie, I’ve learned after all this time, it never goes away. Doesn’t mean I use it as a crutch though. Memories are the mind’s way of making sure you don’t repeat mistakes. Use that knowledge. Sometimes our past screws us up royally, but remember, no matter how bad you had it, there is always someone out there that went through worse.
You are you… The good, the bad and the ugly. True friends look through the bad and focus on the good.Up until I was 20, I never looked people in the eyes and only thought about death. Wondering why God wouldn’t answer my prayers to take me away… Not a good way to live…
Now, I have a wonderful husband of 13 years, two awesome good hearted kids, and a plethera of ponies! 😀
If I hadn’t of gone through the crap I did growing up, I would not have the life I have now and wouldn’t change it for the world. God bless the broken road…So cheers! You will find your path. Embrace who you are, focus on making yourself a better person, and the world will love you!
Hugs.
Andrea
Just the way I wanted to put it..Thanks AndreaAnd hugs and Blessings to you both
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