A Sad Anniversary….

Wasn’t sure if I was going to share this but 10 years ago today my husband passed away. I always feel a bit down around this time and with everything that has happened to me with being laid off, it was like salt in the wound. I did have some things to do this morning and did go to lunch so I wouldn’t be around the house when that ‘hour’ would come. I then came home and napped most of the afternoon.

No, I didn’t spend the day crying nor did I want to. No, I don’t plan to be sad around this time it just happens. Sadness is one of those unwelcome and uninvited visitors that just pops in one you. Sadness is like a negative ‘friend’ that always comes around just to bring you down. I take my feelings one day at a time, if I feel sad, I feel sad. I let sadness embrace me but I don’t embrace it back. My life has gone on, but there is a piece of me that is missing–that has stayed behind somewhere amongst the memories. We all have our vices and baggage that we carry with us–some of it needs to be dropped so we can move on. For me, this will always be that little bag I’ll carry with me always–I’ll allow myself this one hurt to take to my own grave.

So thanks for stopping by and ‘listening’.