I won’t say I can relate, but I can understand.
I watched Tami wait six months for back surgery while taking five different drugs a day. I had to dress her, lift her in and out of bed, etc. Next morning after surgery she was walking by herself and cold turkey’d the drugs.
She was completely useless, didn’t know where she was half the time. She spent a lot of time at her sister-in-laws because I couldn’t stay home and was worried she’d burn herself (again) trying to cook.
But the drugs still have a negative effect a year and a half later.