Internet issues and I think I killed my mom

Yeah so comcast thought it would be fun to cut the main line going into my house so my internet has been very bad lately. They wont be able to fix it for another week since they have to dig up the whole block so if you don’t see me on thats why. Also I finally told my mom that I was pregnant. I figured she would get pissed off and walk away from me but it wasn’t that bad. She just looked at me like I had crushed her and didn’t really say anything. You would think she would have been happy since this will be her first grandchild. It was all I could do to not run crying out of the house. I honestly don’t feel any better having told her then I did before. I’m just going to curl up in a ball and cry now.

I don’t know why I was shocked at her reaction. I knew what it was going to be. She called my up later wanting to know how we got pregnant. I told her I didn’t want to go into details because it was embarrassing so she hung up on me. Before that she was mad that I don’t talk to her and let her know what is going on. I talk to her all the time but I don’t share everything with her because she always uses it against me. She said she tells her mother everything and wants to know why I don’t do the same. We have never had a close relationship so I don’t know why she thinks we should have one now. I find it hard to be close to someone who raised me to belive I was dirt. She once told me if she would have known how I was going to turn out she would have had an abortion. So yeah its hard to be close to someone like that. Since I wouldn’t really talk to her on the phone she sent me an email wanting me to type out exactly what we had to do to get pregnant. I really don’t want to type it out to her either. All I can say is thank god my brother, his fiance, and her sister were there when I told my parents. They were the only ones who were happy for me (besides my father). When my mom just sat there looking mad and shocked my brother was mouthing “what a stupid blank” to me so I had to laugh. Its funny because my soon to be sister-in-law is so happy and excited for me. She said she just couldn’t belive how my mother reacted. Today we go to tell hubbies mom and if she reacts the same way my mother did (I don’t think she will) I will just lose it. I’m still so upset over my mothers reaction that I can’t handle it. I don’t know I just dont understand how anyone could act like that. Its not like I’m 16 and still in high school and pregnant. I’ve been married for 8 years! Maybe now my mother will stop telling me to get a divorce and marry someone without medical issues. Sorry to come on her and rant but its just really bothering me and I’m having a hard time dealing with it.